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Mon, 23 Jul 2007 06:23:04 GMT

i practially leave tomorrow.

not really, but kinda. i leave at like 5 am on tuesday, but thats not that far away.
like
27 hours away.

i'm nervousscaredexcitednotreadyready.

i dont know.

i finished reading the 7th harry potter book. i'm sad it's over.
its like
a childhood friend has died. :[[

anyways. thats all for now. i just wanted to drop in and leave a thought or two.
bye xanga.

for now, that is.

and so

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 01:51:35 GMT

your teen mr dance of oklahoma

:]]

wahoo!

well.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 06:33:31 GMT

6 days to go.

please note

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 23:46:26 GMT

that im really mad
that i didnt go to the mall
with tyler
and emily
and taryn
and april
and their korean fobs
and and and boo.

so now im at home
pouting.

ladida.
i need more driving friends.

photoshop.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 20:38:31 GMT

this is who i am.
this picture discribes me like no other.

like they say
a pictures worth a thousand words.

if you've never been in my house
im looking into a huge mirror that covers a wall.
and where it stops is where the hallway begins.

just incase you got confused.

talent show part 2

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 06:03:14 GMT

so its official
that im going to make up my own stuff
for talent show.

solo to
belief
by gavin degraw.
so yay. and its like 3 minutes which is the minimum for an act's length

lol
my face kinda hurts.
im kinda hungry.
lalala

thats all.

i'm so moody.

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 05:05:41 GMT

so first, i was all like tired and sick right?
THEN
i was listening to some upbeat music and was dancing around my room like a loon

but NOW
all i am is tired. haha.
and i'm trying to kill the battery on my dang phone. so hopefully this works.

early release tomorrow!
but uh, i'm not quite sure how i'm getting home? haha. OH and plus its gonna snow. so that's an added plus to my delima.

ew nasty song on my ipod.
NEXT!
Bad.
NEXT!
oo good!

haha
see, here i go again.

did i mention that my throat hurts like a bih?
cause it does.

owwww.
k goodnight
i hope my battery is almost dead.

talent show

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 05:08:44 GMT

is coming up.
im not quite sure what im going to do.
my instinct tells me to dance
but uh
im sure my school wont get the whole "conetemporary" style of dancing. im sure they'll think its some sort of "interperative" dancing. you know, like the kind where everyone is in a unitard with a little cap thingy over their head and they act like flowers? well yeah. im sure my school will get that feeling from my current solo.

im kinda tired of it.

my solo i mean.
i dont like it very much. ahg.

so idk what to do for talent show.
choreograph my own dance?
nono. its too close. not enough time.

play the piano?
nono...i mess up too much. not enough practicing.

and thats about all my options. haha.
and what about mr. teen dance of oklahoma?
im not quite sure what im doing with that.
everyone keeps on saying im gonna win.
but uh, itd be a big fat let down if i didnt.
i mean i dont doubt myself
i just...idk.

and plus, if i do win i'll have to fly out to nyc in the summer
to compete for the title of mr. teen dance of america
and im sure i'd get creamed.

so idk.
i mean id like to go to nyc again
and take dance classes and stuff
i mean, man that's great.
i guess im just a scaredy cat.
scared of what other dancers will think of me.
scared of what im capable of.
scared of the let down that could come.

i mean
i have high expectations for myself!
so itd suck if i let myself down.
:\

yeaboo.
thats all for tonight.
i have homework.
O_x

did i mention
that today was kinda crappy?
cause it was.
ahh. dang. i need sleep.

bye all.

soooo i'm lying in bed

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 06:17:32 GMT

trying to kil the battery on my phone.

we're almost there.
haha

school tomorrow?
uhg.
sttuuuuuupid.

school days seem to get longer and longer. i hate it. but whatever we're already halfway through which is amazing.

i need more driving friends. like seriously.
so we can go to taco bell at 1 am, just because we can. haha

eeeeeep.
so a lot more people are still on xanga than i thought. that's good. keep it alive. its only boring cause people today don't understand the concept of blogs, ya know?
i mean is the whole point of xanga...which is why it died.
but its okay, cause ill still write every now and then.

i wish i was good at poetry
like some people i know.

oh did i mention that i hate when people ignore me?
especially on myspace. like when i message them or comment them, they don't answer.
and its not just like one message.
its like every way you try to communicate with them, they just don't want to talk to you.

its okay, i get the hint.
just don't ignore me. its annoying.

i don't wanna go to dance tomorrow.
i mean, i should
but blah.
i don't know what's happened to me.
i used to love dance.
and piano.
and orchestra.

they just all suck right now.
boo.
help me god, to find the passion i once had for everything i do.
i know you didn't give me such talent to go to waste.
what am i am i going to do with my life?
where is this going?

this train, is on a one way trip into a big, fat brick wall.

goodnight everyone.
about one more month till my 1000th day as a member of xanga.
that's a lot of days.

day 2

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 23:36:01 GMT

of fasting
has gone well!

but people said i was online last night
which is a FAT lie
it still says my login date was the 6th
which is true.
haha.

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
thats all for now.